Soul-feeding I

I see you from the sky
And I wonder how long it will take me to get home
I wait for an hour or so at the carousel
I have a cigarette to pass the time
Cause the traffic's hell

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

You wipe the tears from my eye
And you say that all that it takes is a phone call
I cry at the thought of being alone and then
I wonder how long it will take til I'm home again

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

I know it doesn't seem so fair
But I'll send you a postcard when I get there

I don't want anything more
Than to see your face when you open the door
You'll make me beans on toast and a nice cup of tea
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV
Tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
And in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
I'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
And we'll get a Chinese and watch TV

P/s: Tis song is my soul-feeding rite nw. Rilli touchable. Huhu. N more..Lily Allen rowx! =P

Hari Sabtu yang Kosong

Walaupun Sabtu ni kosong tapi takpe..sy habiskan sepenuh masa di rumah..hmm..di bilik sbnrnya.. Facebooking, friendstering..etc. Tak byk sangat keje. Tak blaja gak. Ha? Blaja? Plz..next week nak intern, nak blaja watpe? Fuih! Wut i rilli want right nw is resting n resting n resting. Benda2 lain tu tolak tepi. Abg? Ow..right nw i'm very mad wit him. But, yg buat sy terperanjat, sy sangat tenang n tak merasa tak best langsung. Tak mcm salu2, time gaduh sy jadik sangat sedih n mudah menangis, tp skang..heheh..i'll survive! *winks

Wew..sangat jahat!

Ow yek..meh sy bitau, sy ni tersangatlah minat dan ske sangat2 kat Amy Mastura. Kerana keterlaluan minatnya..mendengarkan Amy Mastura kua album baru iaitu "HAPPY" sy terus mengorder mtk mak sy belikan. Yela..sy kan jauh di perantauan n kebetulan parent sy tu nak datang. Okay, mak sy walaupun dia cam berat hati tp dia kata takpe ar..demi anak tercynter dia nak blikan ar tnpa memikirkan apa kata orang tgk makcik ni gi kedai kaset nak bli CD Amy Mastura. Yes, my mom's rock! Hihih..

Skang sy dah dapat dah album Amy Mastura. Hey, sy sanggup tunggu taw n tidak mendownload langsung lagu Amy Mastura. Cuma dengar kt radio jeks. Tu pun dengan penuh kesabaran, pasal ye ar..radio mana putar salu. Pastu..kalo dorang putar pun, lum tentu sy ngah bukak radio. Tak pikir lagi ngah dorang putar lagu kak Amy pastu tetiba buffering. Huwaa! Tertekan taw! Tak kesah, skang da dapat CD Amy Mastura. Blueks!

Maka bermulalah dialog di bawah:

" Abg, album Amy Mastura yang baru ni, sume lagu dia best2!"

" Ye ke?"

" Yek...sume lagu! Takde satu pun yg xbest. Lagu Happy best, ada lagu Dingin Malam tu best...bla bla bla bla...pun best gak!" (excited)

" Wah..bestnyaaaa...nak download ah."

" !@#$%& "

P/s: Moral of the story - Mereka memang tidak memahami..

Tis is d most tough moment 2 me~

Posting in d most scariest department (however it's been 2 days but i didn't find anything 2 be scared about), my parent's going back (n now they're gone 2 d airport T.T) plus abg went for outstation until Sunday..okay, I left alone. Home alone. Sunyi...

Memang tak dinafikan, sy cuma update blog bila sunyi sepi melanda. Cuma bila tiba time2 macam ni, sy ada waktu untuk menulis. Sebab apa? Ya, anda dapat menjangkanya.. Bila sy happy, sy tak perlu nak bersendirian di bilik...sy tak perlu kebosanan sehingga memaksa diri meluahkan rasa tak best ni di sini. Sy cuma perlu berseronok, jalani kehidupan ni dengan bestnya.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! Sy stress skrg. Rasanya life sy serabut minggu ni. Taktau lagi. Ya Allah...tolongla aku...berilah kekuatan kepada hambaMu ini. Semoga keberkatan dari kedatangan mak ayah memberi kemudahan dalam hari-hari yang aku jalani. Ameennn...

Unhappy =(

Bila jalan yang kita lalui sehari-hari jadi tak bebas untuk kita tempuh. Bila rutin seharian kita terkongkong oleh jadual kehidupan yang tidak kita relai, itu adalah kehidupan yang tidak menggembirakan lagi untuk kita. Sama macam apa yang dialami sekarang. Tak hepy, tak puas dengan apa yang didapatkan.

Menyesal? Entahlah. Jauh di sudut hati cuba menafikan setiap kata kesal kerana ini adalah jalan telah dipilih. Mau tidak mau mesti dihabiskan. Tapi, sebagai manusia biasa, tidak dapat lari dari tekanan. Dan hari demi hari tekanan ini seperti makin memberat. Rasa letih, penat.

Maaf buat semuanya. Tapi, saya dah tak menikmati kehidupan ini sepenuhnya. Kalau dapat saya ulang waktu, saya akan pilih suatu jalan yang dapat dinikmati sepuasnya. Memang tidak dapat dibanggakan. Duit? Adakah kerana duit saya pilih jalan ini? Tidak. Saya pilih jalan ini untuk keluarga saya. Untuk mak, untuk ayah, untuk abang, dan untuk semua ahli keluarga saya. Saya mau mereka bangga dengan pencapaian saya. Biar mak dan ayah ada modal untuk bercerita tentang kejayaan anak-anaknya. Biar mereka tidak malu bila ada orang bertanya, " Siapa anak kau sekarang?" Mereka akan jawab.." Doktor!"

Tapi, perjalanan untuk sampai ke tahap itu tidak mudah. Walaupun menurut saya, kesukaran ini bukanlah ilmu pelajaran atau apa, tapi suatu emosi yang terpaksa saya tahan saban waktu. Menahan emosi, memujuk diri agak sentiasa bersabar. Saya rindu untuk berada di rumah sesungguhnya. Rumah saya sendiri, di tanah air saya sendiri..

Hmm...sorry sangat2 blog ini saya guna untuk meluahkan perasaan saya. Tapi memang saya sangat penat. Saya rasa terkongkong. Saya rasa tidak bebas. Saya perlukan sedikit ruang untuk memilih. Bolehkah? Mampukah? Saya hanya mampu bersabar dan terus bersabar..

I am a surgeon-to-be! Hahah

Heheh..skang ngah posting kat surgery dept. Weks? Tak ske sangat kt sini..coz i hate wounds very much. Don't like jahit-menjahit. N more..i don't like emergency. Hahah.

On Call (Dermatology Dept.)

My on call for dermatology dept. wasn't the first one. This is the third on call for this month. But this time..my colleague was different. Amalia'd gone back to where i wanna be right now. She's back to Malaysia for her brother's wedding ceremony. Hmm...how lucky!! But it's okay..I'm cool. =P

Back to the story. My third on call. Actually, nothing had happen. No new patient, no patient in critical condition, BUT, the stressful doctor make me not-so-happy. I don't know. Is he changed after his patient died yesterday and bad news is..he didn't know about it until he came for his daily follow-up-session and find out that the patient wasn't in the ward anymore. Hahah. Or...he's actually that kind of person who cannot be calm and loves to freaking people out. Weqs!

I went to visit this leprosy's patient at 4.00 o'clock after he said that this patient's condition wasn't very stable so he asked me to observe...yeah...not regularly...but juz to make sure that the patient is OK. So..that evening...the patient's condition really really OK as his BP: 120/80 Pulse: 76x/m RR: 24x/m Tax: 37,5 'C. I planned to observe him at 8.00 o'clock and then message the doctor about the patient's condition.

However, at 7.00 o'clock, the doctor called me out and freaked out. Huh! He said the patient is in fever and why don't i report it to him? Ow? But that patient's temperature is normal when I observed him that evening.

Okay...I prepared to go to the hospital that night...and about 9.00 o'clock I began to observed the patient AGAIN. And guess what? BP: 120/80 Pulse: 88x/m RR: 24x/m Tax: 76,8'C. I asked the patient if he's feeling not good...fever may be? And he said..."Nope!" Erk?

I called the doctor...reporting the result of the recent patient's condition. And he said..." Okay then. By the way, is it only you observing the patient? Where's ur other friend? Are they don't want to help? Bla bla bla bla bla bla..."

Hello doctor? It doesn't matter who's observing the patient. As long the patient is OK, then, what's the matter? And..it's not only me observing the patient. My on-call-partner will observing the patient tomorrow morning. We'd agreed the deal this afternoon. Whoah!